If someone had told me when Ale asked me to marry him that in two years I'd be pregnant I would have slapped them and said "watch your mouth." I've always been a career girl and a perfectly content one at that. My life was fabulous!! But now its even more fabulous than I could have ever imagined. I have always wanted to have babies but at 28 I still felt too young. What changed for me was listening to the advice of one of my dearest girlfriends who is in her 40's, incredibly successful and visually stunning. She told me that this was the best time in my life that I could become pregnant. I am young, healthy, with great eggs and a body that will spring back into shape in no time flat (we'll see about that! I already have my plan). I thought about the friends that I have who have gone through thousands of dollars trying to get pregnant in-vitro, one who employed the use of a surrogate, and another friend of mine who at 36 is trying in vain to get her terrible boyfriend to marry her and get her pregnant. I am extremely lucky to be having this child with an amazing man who worships me. He is my best friend and I am humbled to be undertaking this beautiful task.So this is me and Ale at 24 weeks (that's 6 months). I am allowing myself to enjoy eating for the first time since I can remember and loving my growing belly. My baby moves a ton, I think he or she is a ninja! I love waking up and feeling the baby kick me to go eat something, I love when I am falling asleep how the baby changes positions to find their little snuggle spot, and I think its funny how when Ale is close to me the baby kicks him too as if to say (move it buddy, this is my space). We decided to not find out the baby's sex as this is one of life's few surprises and even though people our age look at us like we're nuts - older folks smile and wink at us because it IS very special to not want things so automatically in life.
On a beach bikeride the other afternoon I asked my friend why she never had any children and she replied, "Well I never wanted any, but in hindsight, had it happened I would've been happy." She never felt ready financially or career-wise then when she and her friends around her made it to the point of success- their personal lives or health betrayed them. I would've easily done the same.
What do I miss being pregnant? I miss prosecco, speck, sushi, prosciutto, wine, ceviche and feeling skinny. Worrying about being skinny is really selfish of me. I remind myself (daily) that really soon I'll have a baby girl or boy to spoil and it'll all be worth it. I'll always remember that week before Christmas when Ale and I decided to wait two years to have our first baby -the next day we found out we were 7 weeks pregnant.
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